Jul 15
time alone…
..leads to introspection which leads, in turn, to sadness.
Or maybe it’s just part of the natural(unnatural) ebb and flow of depression. I’ve been pretty content lately, so I guess it’s about time for me to feel “low” again. I was just telling my doctor that I haven’t been able to shake this, “when’s the other shoe gonna drop?” sensation lately.
Perhaps it was just a harbinger of this stage. Perhaps it happens each time and I just fail to notice it. Perhaps it’s something I need to bear in mind, though I don’t know that it would help since it’s not like I can double up on vitamin C or anything when I feel a depressive episode coming on. The best I can do is make sure I have plenty of clean laundry and movies to watch since I won’t have the energy to take care of myself or the ability to enjoy things I normally like.
At least I have my highly overdeveloped sense of responsibility already in place, as well as something to be responsible for this weekend; I cannot “shut down” because the doggie still needs to be loved and fed and walked.
Speaking of which, it’s time for the pre-bedtime walk. I want to go to sleep soon.
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